I specialize in the following areas:
Patterns from the past can run under the surface and get ignored in the fast-pace of daily life. Clients often tell me that they need to just "get over it" or "not be so sensitive" when the opposite is actually needed. Our stories can have power over us when they haven't been processed, examined, and given the emotional weight they deserve. Some of the hardest work on ourselves is in spending time looking at significant stories from our formative years, and coming to new realizations of how we were harmed, mistreated, or neglected. It takes courage to face the things that have power over us, and to allow painful feelings to run their course through us.
Children grow up thinking that their environment was the norm. In later years, they wonder about the impact on them in the present. Repetitive patterns keep happening in the present, and what "worked" in younger years often does not work in the present and in different environments. The goal in our work together is to examine what happened, feel it deeply in an environment of trust, and have a companion with us in places that have been previously experienced alone and with shame. Restorative work can come when we show ourselves kindness in new places, compared to old ways of being that were harsh and full of feelings of being unworthy or not enough.
There are unique challenges for anyone who has experienced a different culture than the one he/she grew up with. It is extremely difficult to live between worlds and to not fit in with either a home culture or the culture away from home. I feel passionate about acculturation issues as it can be complex to navigate cultural changes that coincide with psychological changes occurring as a result of being immersed in multiple cultures. A therapist I respect immensely once told me that I lived as an exile in order to be of aid to others who are also exiles. It is a path of feeling alone, isolated, and a person can feel like they have lost their identity due to being overwhelmed by multiple systems with different values or norms.
It can seem like an impossible battle to not fit in with either culture, and even more difficult to have conflicting experiences with differing ways of existing. These culture stories we carry are sacred and need to be treated with kindness and care. There is a lot of suffering and feeling misunderstood when one's identity has been up-rooted between cultures. Learning to exist with this tension takes time and patience to increase one's capacity to bear more within oneself. There is richness and depth in a multi-cultural person, and at the same time there are stories of harm related to culture that need to be processed.
Modern culture often tries impose rules onto men and women about who they should be, and this can minimize a person's internal experience. In response, people are often alone in the areas of life that are most personal and important. I often hear that emotions are negative and something to stifle, when they are really signs that something deeper is happening that a person is trying to ignore. I think a lot of us grow up not having healthy role-models when it comes to showing emotion. It takes strength to be vulnerable in difficult or painful stories from the past.
I believe we need more voices advocating that emotions are valid and needed, and they can increase intimacy instead of leading to more shame in silence/loneliness. I strongly believe there can be reparative work done where there is a history of neglect or abuse. I am passionate about helping others discover more of who their authentic-selves are despite a culture that is harsh and minimizing of real harm that occurs. Sometimes additional support is needed due to shame that keeps us quiet or unresponsive in the face of adversity. It is truly inspiring to see clients step into their resilience and grow in an ability to grieve their losses; identity faces a maturation process when we face the cloud head-on vs. running from it.
Some people have lost a sense of comfort from spiritual beliefs that no longer feel relevant to internal/external struggles in life. There are often stories of harm and disillusionment in seeing leaders not have integrity with what is preached vs. their actions. I feel passionate about examining how the church impacts kids/teens growing up. Some grow up to realize they sacrificed their own sense-of-self in order to belong with a system telling them who and how to be. It is disheartening to see how many people suffer with identity issues as a result of how others in the church engaged with them growing up. Church ideally would be a place of community, belonging, and healing compared to how common it is for people to be harmed in it.
Our Work Together
The metaphor of taking off shoes while stepping into your story is important, as this needs to be a safe environment for trust, risk, and new possibilities to form. Often times, we don't see that freedom and choice are closer than we thought they were. I am passionate about how early attachment issues affect our current relational patterns. We all have scripts or patterns that we learned growing up that do not work for us as adults. Learning to re-parent ourselves often takes a third-party-view to help us see what is blocking or hindering us from leaning into our authentic-selves.